My life isn't perfect, well nobody’s is. I have great family and a life where I get whatever I
want from a lovable sister and a supportive dad. At some moment that’s not all
you want. There is this thing called independence which has triggered me a lot
form the time I saw my sister shifting to a new state all by her. I have always
wanted a life like that of hers. A big college, new state, new friends, I have
always wanted that. Well it’s not that I was ever deprived of all these but I guess
it was all in a sort of different way.
I got into
graduation with no knowledge of whatever subject I was put in, new hostel and a
new aim to study more. May be it was more because people around me were doing
that. They were going for higher education and I too wanted that for myself. I
have followed the crowd instead of following my own dreams. I went in for a
post grad and imagined myself being placed at some brand company which would
give me opportunity to shift to new state and live a new life with lots of new
clothes, parties and a scooty of my own.
What I didn't realize was maybe I wanted something else. The profile of an IT wouldn't match
the kind of life I was dreaming of. Now when that story of being placed in a
brand company is out of question it dawns to me that may be I wanted something
different. I wanted a job that has reaching targets, giving presentations,
meetings and a lot more time for my own self. I have come a long way into the profession
I chose by luck.
It is said
that the best professionals are those who make their profession out of their
passions. What I worry is I don’t have a particular passion. I sometime feel, I
would be a good writer or may be a journalist. Sometimes I even have dreams of
being a HR. It’s so confusing. I am ready to follow my passion and make it a profession;
all I need is to know, what exactly my passion is. Maybe only then can I start
with. At a point of career where you are doing nothing and waiting to be what
others want you to be, that’s where you are in doubt about yourself. This is
the place to make a switch or to stick to what you have being doing all these
years.
Some astrologer
has enlightened my mother when I was a kid that my present career option is
best suited for me. I believed the same, and my above average scores were a
reason that my parents hope was stick to it. Sometimes I thought these grades
mean nothing. Just because I have high grades in a particular subject doesn't make me an expert in it. I know a lot of people who have great knowledge yet
poor grades. Does that disqualify them from following their passion? Well forget
about them, if I don’t have an experience or grades to follow my passion,
should I give up on it. Then why do people say follow your passion?
I have been
a dancer, a writer, a painter, a speaker and a lot more things which could be
my passion. I may not be sure of what exactly should be my passion but I am
just 24. Employability can’t force me into what I don’t want to be. At times I make
up my mind and work hard on being what destiny has brought me into. I don’t
know if it’s right or wrong but may be some day I might fall in love with what I
have been doing all these years. May be someday my profession will become my
passion, if not the other way around.
